On fine wire

I’m feeling all miserable again..
It’s the most awful of all this time..
I have not been eating the whole of yesterday,
I’m hungry, but I have no appetite at all,
I did eat around 4pm when I feel the pinch in my tummy,
but, I vomited everything out again an hour later..
I never eat since then…

I can’t sleep well for the last two nights,
I’ve been trying to sleep..but I can’t,
my head’s pounding hard,
I always end up crying
and getting suffocated after that because of my stupid incurable cough
that blocked my airway and I'll be gasping for air..

I feel…really depressed
My eyes are swollen and puffy in the morning,
In fact, it’s swollen the whole day
Bringing this hideous look to college isn’t pleasant at all
I wish I could just stay in bed all day

I tried hiding my feelings
but my eyes start tearing whenever I start thinking
no matter where I am,
I even tear in class when my lecturer is talking, ughh

The weather now..expressed my feelings
It makes me feel worst
If only I can stand under the rain the whole day..
then, no one will ever know I'm crying..

For the whole of yesterday I have not talk much,
that’s because, I can’t even talk
I even find it hard just to smile,
whenever someone talks to me, I start tearing
running to the toilet just to let it out..
sigh..

My feelings is eating me inside
I don’t wanna feel this way
I wanna let it all out to someone
but who..? I. don’t. know. …
there’s no one there
I wish...you were there…

I’ve been checking my phone every second, every minute, every hour,
waiting for your message
wondering when will it come,
Even if it comes, I don’t think I dare to read it straight away,
I’m scared…=(

Am I the only one feeling so miserable?
Or are you feeling the same way too?